Happy memorial day! Even though we don’t talk every day, knowing that I can’t reach you at an exact moment for 5 months is something I’m not exactly looking forward to. Lol. But I’m sure the 5 months will fly by. Be easy! (: Take care and be safe. & Lastly, thank you. <3

Happy memorial day! Even though we don’t talk every day, knowing that I can’t reach you at an exact moment for 5 months is something I’m not exactly looking forward to. Lol. But I’m sure the 5 months will fly by. Be easy! (: Take care and be safe. & Lastly, thank you. <3

Just a part of my daily reads

Just a part of my daily reads

i think i’m getting way too ahead, way too fast. i need to slow down & breathe. i forget how relieved i can feel by writing on this thing. it helps to collect thoughts & organize them.

new york trip; booked
observation; 70 down, 50 more hours to go
re-enrollment to school; check
register for class; post-poned
pay off the macbook; $200 to go
second job; ON A HUNT
GRE prep; slacking - i need to get on it!

i need money & i need it fast. ;\ sigh. i have faith though. i’ve invested about $50 toward books that i believe will help me make the best of things and teach me what life has to offer. i just need to keep on praying.<3

“Aries people need to keep physically busy. They accomplish many things simply because of their restless energy. They need to learn how to make constructive use of their energetic efforts. The typical Aries urge is to take on more than can be done reasonably well.”

Well if that doesn’t describe me down to the tee, i don’t know what does. Ha. Finally stepped down at work, but managed to keep my full time hours. I’m not going to lie, I wish I did take the position; a raise, especially at a time like this, would be extremely helpful. I don’t know how someone can be so financially stable, yet feel so broke. HA! Actually, it’s nice to know that I’m not the only crazy one out there. If anyone knows just what I mean, it’s Micaela. So financially stable, yet we’re really not because those savings are legitimately meant for SAVINGS; anything from school to moving. It sucks because it just seems like I have to throw away money to get to where I want to be without guarantees of really achieving that title. :\ UGH. You gotta do what you gotta do right? The cycle of life. Blah. On another note, if anyone knows of a place that is hiring, LET ME KNOW! I need a second job ASAP, preferably one with tips! Ha. Anyhow, just as described, I feel the need to constantly stay busy. Now I just need to direct more of that to be even more beneficial to me. I am definitely crazy, I can tell you that. My goals for the next few months: find a second job, continue to observe and rack up hours, study for the gre, go back to school, maintain a gym routine, and keep somewhat of a social life. Sigh. WISH ME LUCK!

Consult not your fears, but your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.

Seriously drowning in this negativity

You know why relationships don’t work? Because conversations became texting, arguments became phone calls, feelings became subliminal messages online, sex became easy, the word “love” gets used out of context, insecurities have become your way of thinking, getting jealous became a habit, trust has been lost, cheating became an accident, leaving became the only option & being hurt became natural.